beach bum at heart

i was watching a movie tonight about three friends graduating from high school and taking a road trip and blahblahblah. the details aren’t that important.

but as i was watching this movie i looked back on my childhood. preschool, elementary school, middle school, and high school. 

i can honestly say that i’m proud of who i am. and what i had to go through to get here.

i grew up with a dad working middle shift. which means i barely got to see him during the week. it makes it a little awkward as i get older and change. but we’re pushing through and i think he’s trying to realize his little girl grew up almost over night. 

in elementary school i was bullied. a lot. i was pretty chubby and the tall girl in class. i was taller then everyone which made me a target. plus as i said, i wasn’t skinny. i snacked a lot and ate my feelings. i didn’t play any sports, and i still don’t. but back then i felt like i was a freak because i didn’t. 

in middle school, i started to change. yeah i was still a little heavy but i was growing and changing. i joined colorguard and found that i had a talent. this helped me lose weight as well. i got my first boyfriend and my personality changed a little. i became less socially awkward and made more friends.

in high school, i continued with colorguard. continued to grow as a leader and friend. i decided that i didn’t like to eat red meat. i joined cheerleading. i opened up a little more. i got hurt and people would knock me down. i gained anxiety issues. but i’m pressing on and hoping life will be better out of high school.

i’m different then the girl i was even a few years ago. and i’m proud of who i am today.